--> x_we_believe_o's Journal

You are viewing [info]x_we_believe_o's journal

x_we_believe_o's Journal [entries|friends|calendar]
x_we_believe_o

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[10 Mar 2005|07:17pm]
[ mood | busy ]

hello .. lets see .. what did i do the past couple days? ummm yesterday, me and nicole woke up for sckool, and left to pick up angelyna .. and then we went to dunkin donuts.. and on the way to sckool .. didnt feel like goin to 1st period... so we drove around and chilled at amys house .. umm then i went to 2nd period cause i was goin on a filed trip .. to a nursing home .. and some lady who was 1o2 with altimerz grabbed my face and kissed me on the cheek and said she loved me .. she was sooo cute .. lol .. then we went back to sckool .. and i had all my other classes ... i also had lunch with ed : ) lol .. yummy .. umm .. nicole picked me up from sckool and we drove around for a little .. then she dropped me off at home .. today .. we didnt have a car so we took the bus .. ewww .. but she gets her S . U . V next week .. so im  souped : ) umm today after sckool .. i didnt do anything .. im def. failing like 2 of my major classes .. i have a 26 and a 21 ... reall good brittanyyy .. lol .. umm yea thats about it .. im gonna go .. ill update later or tmrw .. peaceee outt  <333

comment

[09 Mar 2005|06:51pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

i thought that this stuff was really good, so i wanted to put it in here  :)

 

                                                                  

 

the emptiness and coldness,
of the silent night,
and there she sits shaking,
from her horrible fright,

cause when she closes her eyes,
his face is the only thing seen,
and when she finally gets to sleep,
he haunts her in her dreams,

and she wakes up crying,
with her head and stomach spinning,
with the tears streaming,
she keeps asking herself why he keeps winning,

she thought they'd last,
and always be together,
but little did she know,
what he really thought of her,

and what he told her,
was just a bunch of lies,
because when she finally learned the truth,
inside her heart slowly dies,

and he lied and said he loved her,
just to get something in the end,
she hated it and it hurt her so much,
but just for him she'd pretend,

but in the end for her,
was being called a slut or hoe,
and most of the people who call her this,
she barely even know,

and now all the guys know,
exactly what turns her on,
like when you gently kiss her back,
or lightly squeeze her bottom,

she hates how he told her he loved her,
and then called her a hoe,
but shes so happy,
that he finally let her go,

but he still haunts her dreams,
and she still crys at night,
but shes slowly getting stronger,
cause she wont die without a fight!

                                                                       

 

tonights my final chance,
time to do or die,
possibly you'll be mine again,
with this one final try,

I'll silently hold me breath,
and cross my fingers tight,
I'll close my eyes and let my courage build,
... this is my ending fight,

I'll take your hand,
and lead you away,
hopefully with this mischievious deed,
you'll always want to stay,

after tonight no more anger will arise,
and no more tears will be shed,
I feel a faint shiver go thorugh me.
as I lead you to the bed.
 

I remember evry moment,
from the beginning to the end,
and throughout the whole thing,
I could feel my heart begin to mend,

the long sweet kisses,
that were, oh so passionate,
completely and utterly shocked me,
I never knew you to be so affectionate,

The feeling of your body against mine,
easily took my breath away,
no other guy I've ever been with,
ever made me feel that way,

a silent tear rolled down me cheek,
I'm glad you missed it,
cause I'm beginning to get this feeling,
that this is something you might soon forget,

and when it was done,
you gave me a final kiss good-bye,
I sat and watched you leave,
while inside I wanted to die,

well it's been almost 2 weeks,
since you even said "Hi!",
so I guess with that last kiss,

                                     

cant you help me
help my bleeding heart
its been bruised and broken
all the words
that youve spoken
have been lies
but when i looked into you eyes
all i could do was cry
and know i meant nothing to you
nothing at all

 

 

love that one : )                                    ok thats it .. comment if youd like tooooo

 

 

<3333

comment

[08 Mar 2005|10:00pm]

hello .. i havent updated in a wicked long time .. welll .. lets see then .. umm last friday .. i went to erins with ashley and britt n katie and everyone .. erin L showed upp too :) then katie and britt left and we called up ricky and matt .. and they came to the dance with us .. we smoked and drank .. but i didnt drink .. umm .. then we smoked after that too .. umm when we got to erins we pretty much just chilled .. saturday .. me and ash and erin just kinda hung around .. my mom picked me up and we went shoppin .. and picked up some butts and went home .. me and nicole were home alone together till bout 2  am cause mom and adam went out .. umm sunday .. i went home and did nothing .. monday .. i got an awesome fone call from edd :) we talked for a while .. and im going to JP with him n hes going to sophmore semi with me :) ummmm .. today .. nicole got her liscence .. YESS .. and we went with candace and went tanning .. and hung around .. and now im here .. soooooo imm gonna gooo :) peacee out

 

 

 

 

 

<333333 ; )

comment

[20 Feb 2005|07:42pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

hello .. wow .. i havent updated in this thing for a while .. alot has happened ppl!! lol .. well .. lets see here .. im such an idiot .. and i feel like a queer .. but im back to likeing glen again .. lol .. only cause we hada conversation and he told me some stuff .. and ive never not liked him .. i just like am open to likeing him again .. lol .. umm yea .. lets see .. friday .. after sckool .. i went with katie erin and brittany to katies house .. we watched a movie .. went to the mall .. and then back to erins house .. then katie left and went to work .. me erin and brittany hung around and plunket came over and we watched a movie .. wasnt to far into the movie .. and erin and plunket started to wrestle .. lol .. it was wicked funny .. then later on .. henry katie and derek came over .. and we all hung around .. then they left and we all went to bed .. saturday .. britt left at like 1oish in the morning? then katie woke up and she hada leave cause she hada go to work .. so me and erin woke up around like 11ish and we watched HOME ON THE RANGE .. lmao .. which was an awesome moviee .. i lovedd itt .. lol .. umm then britt came back over .. and my mom came at like 2ish .. umm .. then me and my mom and my sister went to walmart to return something? then to dunkin donuts .. then home .. when i got home i did more than nothing .. and went to bed around like 11ish .. today .. i came back to my dads house around like 2ish .. and my uncle and his gf were here to watch a race with my dad? yea .. and i did nothing .. and now .. my brothers out with my friends which is really weird cause they are like obsessed with him .. lmao .. ok well .. ill update later .. peaceee

comment

[13 Feb 2005|06:04pm]
[ mood | tired ]

hellooo .. welll .. lets see here .. umm friday .. i think 3rd period .. i went home cause i was shaking soo much and i had a wicked migrane .. umm .. then that night .. i went to sams club best buy and some chinese place to pick up our food .. me and my mom went home and ate .. i also dyed my hairrr .. it doesnt look that bad i dont think .. and waited for adam to get home .. then we watched the grudge .. and my mom said it was stupid so we stopped it half way through ... but then i wanted to watch another movie .. so i watched THE NOTEBOOK .. omfg .. i effing love that movie .. it was so sad/cute/funny .. now thats one of my favorite movies .. lol .. umm then saturday .. i got up around 9 .. and cleaned .. then around like 113o .. i met up with jordan and megan at the providence place .. we walked around .. i only got 2 shirts .. then matt met us there .. and then like a half hour later .. i went home .. and i just chilled around the house for the rest of the day .. later that night i just chilled in my room and watched some movies .. today .. i woke up around 83o .. and my dad picked me up and we went to my uncles .. and then we all went to mohegan sun .. and had lunch .. and then me and his kids went to the arcade .. it was ok .. im really tired though .. i came home and cleaned of course .. then watched the notebook again like a million timess .. soo yea .. now im sitting here doing nothing .. i feel like such a loser that i did like nothing this weekend .. haha .. i have no friends and no life .. well .. im gonna go now .. ill update later .. </333

comment

[10 Feb 2005|11:59am]
[ mood | sick ]

hello .. uhhh today was half and half .. umm .. alota ppl liked my haircut .. so that was cool .. umm .. i LOVED my lunch .. i spent it with matttttt =] very big smile .. ohhh man hes fuckin fineeeee .. lol .. umm yea ... classes were ok .. it started to go down hill in last period .. i got a fuckin migrane .. sooo bad .. and now i seriously feel like shit right noww .. it suckssss ... and not to mention .. i need a cigarette so fucking bad .. uhhh .. yea .. so tmrw .. im dying my hair .. yes yes ppl its a new me .. lol .. nahh im just kidding .. but idk .. its time for me to change a little .. i need to look different .. im sickk lookin .. lol .. no need to tell me .. ok well .. im gonna go now .. ill update laterr </3

comment

[08 Feb 2005|05:02pm]
[ mood | content ]

hellooo .. im gettin my hair cut tmrw .. and this is what its gonna look like =]

 

 

 

and im coloring it over the weekend .. and its gonna look like this =]

 

 

lol .. well .. imm gonna goo .. comment and tell me what you think if you wanna =] <333

7 commented comment

[07 Feb 2005|07:57pm]
[ mood | wtf?? lol ]

wow .. its been a while since i updated .. umm lets see .. friday .. after sckool i went over britts house and waited for katie to get outa work .. thenn me britt katie and ashley went to the dance .. it was fuckin bomb let me tell you .. i had the bestttt time ever .. afterwards we hung out with derek and henry .. and picked up fenton =] then we dropped fenton and ashley off and we hung out for a little while longer .. then they took us homeeee .. umm sat. me and britt and katie woke up and went to dennys .. my mother came to get me and me her and nicole went home to pack .. cause we moved into my moms bf's house in EAST PROVIDENCE !!!! ohh man its sooo far away .. but yea .. its pretty cool there .. he has a hot tub though .. so im soupedd =]- well .. im gonna go ... ill update tmrw though .. peaceeee

 

 

 

.:::. ohh boy i got a crush on you .:::.

comment

[01 Feb 2005|06:15pm]
[ mood | content - ?? lol ]

well helloo .. umm .. lets see .. i havent updated in a while .. so .. umm monday .. we got our new classes .. i have child dev. GAYEST CLASS EVER .. umm and i gotttt mixed media .. which is wicked fun .. umm after sckool monday .. i was home alone till like 7ish? yeaa pretty boring .. today .. the only new class i had was study .. and mikey mo mo is in my class =] yea .. but it was pretty boring .. and my teacher is like a physco who went to butler for KILLING HER CAT?!?!?!? i was like whatttt .. yea .. so now im home alone again .. mike bonner came over for a little while today .. and basically i locked him outa the house the whole time .. cause he was being wicked queer .. so he took my shoe outside and put it down and started walking away .. so i ran and got it .. and he tryed to run back to get in .. so i locked him out .. and he sat out there for like a half hour .. lol .. it was pretty funny .. then he finally went home .. and i sat here and did some stuff .. and took a shower .. kayla was suppose to come over today .. but she couldnt =[ so shes quote unquote .. PUSHING HER LUCK to ask .. lol .. ok well .. i gotta go do some more stuff around the house before my dad gets home .. ill update laterr .. peaceee </33

2 commented comment

[30 Jan 2005|03:42pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

hayy .. well .. lets see here .. friday .. after sckool .. i went to the mall then to get my nails done .. then went to amys to see nicole before the dance ( hate myself for not goin =\ ) umm .. then me her and adam went to sams and best buy .. then he got chinese for us =] .. after we watched movies we went back home cause mom hada work in the morning .. we had a couple cigarettes on the way home and talked about some stuff .. umm saturday .. i went over katies house .. and me her and britt just hung around for a while .. then later that night we called henry to see what he was doin .. and he said nothin .. so him and his friend chris drove up and picked us up .. and we all went to erins house .. we stayed there for about a half hour maybe? then just went driving around .. it was pretty fun .. then we went back to katies house and called up derek to see what he was doing cause we didnt feel like stayin there .. and he couldnt come up for some reason .. idk .. i think he lost his voice? i dunno .. but then we just went to bed cause we were wicked tired .. her dogg kept wakin me up the whole night cause it was barking .. umm today .. we just hung around .. britt went home around like 1215 .. and i got picked up around like 1245 .. now .. im justt sittin here .. relaxin and listenin to music .. so yea .. by the way .. ME AND JORDAN DIDNT GET TO HANG OUT =[ grr i was mad =\ and my mom wouldnt let me do anything with lyss =\ uhh .. but we are hanging out next weekend fo sho ! lol .. ok well .. ill update laterrr .. peaceeee =]-

comment

[28 Jan 2005|10:18am]
[ mood | flirty ]

hmm .. well .. im in history .. and i just took my test .. i got a 46 .. haha .. excellent huh? ummmm .. last night i went to the mall around like 73o? with nicole and amy .. my sisterr took foreverrrr finding a dress .. and we got home around 1oish? yea .. i went to bed and got up this morning and hada finish a spanish project that i waited foreverrr to do .. butt yea thats ok .. soo .. i had spanish first and im pretty sure i failed that exam too .. after sckool .. im going back to my dads house till like 23o .. then my moms coming to get me .. then were going get my nails done .. then goin to pick up JORDAN !!! ohh i cant wait to hang out with her .. we havent hung out in sooo longg .. and then i think we are taking nicole to the providence place cause she doesnt like her dress or something like that? yeaa .. umm .. then were gonna go back to the house ( me jordan and motherr ) and hang around .. then go see nicole before the dance .. ya know ..  THE DANCE I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO TO BUT MY EX IS AN EFFING FAGG .. anyy wayy .. then we are dropping jordan off at home .. and me and mother are gonna meet adam .. go out to eat .. rent movies .. then go back to his house and watch them and hang out .. soo yea .. ill update later if i feel like it .. and if not tmrw =] peaceeee

comment

[27 Jan 2005|04:31pm]
hmmm .. lets see .. today was pretty cool .. i had my photo. and geometry midterms today .. not tooo bad .. umm .. then i had spanish and history .. which i just fucked off in those classes .. ummm .. now my moms coming to get me and me and nicole and amy are going to the mall .. soo im gonna go get ready .. and ill update tmrw or later .. peaceeeee </333
2 commented comment

[26 Jan 2005|08:32pm]
[ mood | loved ]

hayyy .. well .. today was wicked awesome .. idk why? umm i first period was gym .. i hung out with matt the whole time :0 it was fucknig excellent .. then it was english .. and i got a 9o on my midterm .. so i was souped bout that .. then we got out early .. and i slept for most the day .. umm .. then i just made plans with jordan .. and she is coming with me on friday to get my nails done and stuff .. aww .. i lovee herr .. i have missed herrr sooooo much .. things are gonna start goin back to the way they were .. lol .. i cant wait .. so yea .. umm .. thats it really ... ill update later .. peaceeeeeee kiddoss

2 commented comment

[25 Jan 2005|04:01pm]
ok .. who wants to leave anonymous comments? cause if your gonna do that .. then leave your fucking name .. cause its getting really old now </3 and im starting to get wicked pissed off .. and if you even knew anything about me .. then youd know all the shit your saying isnt true .. stupid mother fuckers </33
3 commented comment

[25 Jan 2005|02:20pm]

umm yea .. i had a really good day yesterday... so what happene? i had the shittiest day today .. idk why .. everything just fucking sucked .. and i wanna blame a certain person .. but i cant .. cause its not right .. idk .. i wish things were back to the way they used to be .. ya know .. me being happy ALL THE TIME .. me NOT GETTING FUCKED OVER by guys .. i dunno .. its not fair to me .. i never did anything wrong .. but whateverr .. im not gonna dwell on it .. soo idk .. ill update later </3

3 commented comment

[24 Jan 2005|08:58pm]

oh so tragic ox: im not even anything anymore .. i dress preppy and sometimes punk .. i listen to punk, emo, rock w/e u wanna call it .. and i still listen to some pop .. country .. and some rap
oh so tragic ox: so im ME
oh so tragic ox: in my own catagory

 

 

thank you jordan .. very well put =]

1 commented comment

[23 Jan 2005|01:14pm]
[ mood | devious ]

hay hay .. wow .. im in a better mood today .. for some weird reason .. well .. i got up at like 83o .. went pee .. had breakfast which was 2 hot wieners .. lol . i hate breakfast .. umm .. then i called my mom to find out when shes coming back from NY .. she might get snowed in .. umm .. then i brushed my teeth .. and played playstation .. ummmmmmm .. thennnn .. i helped my dad out cause hes sick .. thennn i watched a movie .. now .. im online talking to ppl .. i made friends with megan belanger .. yes ppl .. i said i was sry .. cause i took a survey the other day and asked ppl if i was a bitch .. and most said yes .. soo .. i decided to be nice .. lol .. umm .. im waiting to see if kayla can come over tmrw !! good times if she can .. cant wait till after exams kayla !! YOU KNOW !! lol .. ok well .. im gonna go .. ill update later .. peaceee el negros =]

6 commented comment

[22 Jan 2005|02:55pm]
[ mood | fuck you ]

hmm .. lets see .. yesterday .. i went to sckool .. bla bla .. then michelle came with me after sckool .. and we dropped my sister off at work .. then we went to mcdonalds .. and had something to eat .. umm .. after that we got dropped off at her house .. and then we chilled till like 63o .. at 63o .. my mom picked us up and dropped us off at the mall .. we hung around there .. we saw corey and his friend there .. and a buncha ppl that we knew there .. so we walked around with them .. then at the movies .. we saw some ppl we knew to .. umm .. we went to see white noise .. it was wickedddd good .. kinda scary .. but good .. michelle def. almost broke my hand though .. haha .. it was wicked fun .. then she dropped me off at home .. and i went straight to bed .. and my mom and sister came in screaming and woke me up .. this morning .. my mom dropped me and nicole off at my dads at like 6 cause shes going to NY ..? im like umm ok .. so i have to stay here all day and clean .. and im having another really shitty day .. AND SOME FUCKING PEOPLE DONT MAKE IT ANY BETTER .. yea .. some ppl are fucking assholes and dont think they are doing anything wrong .. AND THEY FUCKING ARE .. so whatever .. yea .. im gonna go though .. ill update later ..

comment

[20 Jan 2005|04:55pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

hi .. yea .. today was wicked shitty .. shitter then usual actually .. so i wake up and get ready .. i decided to dress up a little today .. like look nice .. so maybe joe would notice and say something .. but of course .. he didnt .. umm first period went ok i guess .. idk .. i didnt really talk to joe alot today .. basically it all went down from there since i got home .. i got screamed at by my dad .. he started sayin all this shit how i dont do anything .. and i better not be smokin pot and accusin me of shit .. and just flippin out like usual .. then .. i called my mom .. and i just like cryed .. i dont know why .. i just like balled my eyes out .. i think i just need to do that every once in a while .. its not good to keep everything in .. i guess .. thats what my sister told me .. but ya know .. i do have the few ppl that go their extra way to make me feel better .. ( corey brown !!! lately my sister ) idk .. we get along for the most part lately .. its kinda cool i guess .. its just a suprise cause i always thought my family like hates me ..cause im like the problem child .. oh and according to some ppl " im belemic" ? mmhmm ok .. ppl shouldnt talk WHEN THEIR SKINNIER THEN I FUCKING AM .. uhh .. ppl really piss me off .. oh well .. yea .. once again .. i have no plans this weekend .. cause i have no friends .. and not to mention my moms fucking going to NY on saturday and shes dropping me off and .. and I DO NOT WANT TO STAY HERE .. so me and kayla grace are planning on going to the movies or something .. idk .. we wanna hang out though .. i miss her =] shes the best .. and next saturday .. ME AND JORDAN WILL BE HANGING OUT .. we are reuniting .. its official .. idc what anyone has to say .. you can fuckin suck my wang if you dont like it .. but yea .. im gonna go .. cause my mom should be here soon .. then just me and her are going to BJ's =] so alone time with her should be good .. ok well .. im gonna go .. ill update later =]-

6 commented comment

[18 Jan 2005|05:06pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

hello.... umm yea .. im having a pretty shitty couple days .. yeaa .. im not gonna say what about .. but lets just leave it at that .. im seriously beginning to wonder ... and i just wanted to say thanks to corey brown .. hes my trueee nikka and i love him to death =] i hope you and your gf stay together for a while .. lol .. i wonder how her goin over your house was today..? lol ... and you think im sick .. yea .. but im gonna go .. cause my dad called me and said hes not gettin subway .. so now were gettin KFC .. uhhh .. soo i gotta go get shit ready .. ill update later .. comment if you wanna ..

2 commented comment

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]